Now that I have given myself the right to complain I need to unload some issues I'm having.
The last couple of days have been really challenging for me. I usually find having 3 young children is not all that stressful and I enjoy the day to day of motherhood. Yesterday it seemed my coping skills went AWOL. I was not enjoying their company, I was feeling incredibly stretched and all the mess was making me twitchy. It felt like their requests for my help were relentless, the fighting didn't stop and I was completely ignored every time I said something. Not to mention the youngest swinging between clinging and whinging. I just wanted to run and hide.
I did a pretty terrible job on the parenting front yesterday. I was snappy, rude, I yelled, I shamed, I did not listen to the kids at all. I felt like I had nothing left in my reserves and resorted to being the kind of parent I am usually making stinkeye at. Of course the kids responded in kind by ignoring me more, clinging more and yelling right back at me.
I'm hopeful that today will be better. I'm going to ignore the mess until Luke gets home and I might go for a walk with just my ipod.